Digression Dark and Dangerous

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nemesis

i have your names in black binders, i have your numbers in indigo ink, i have your spiders captured and coddled, enrolled and enhanced, dancing for dimes in the darkness at the base of the stairs.

i dream in days and dates, i whisper words and wishes, smile and smile, sit and spin. forget nothing, forgive less, writhing and whining in the darkness at the base of the stairs.

i’ve dug each mark in, i’ve dug each..one…deep. every slight, every sound, every wound, every wish, chaotic calender, insanity inscribed, carved like christmas in the darkness at the base of the stairs.

at dawn i will burn it, at dawn i will burn it all. memories and mallomars, velvet and vice as i limp through the empty halls. singing to heaven, singing to hell, hurling the lamps into the darkness at the base of the stairs.

in the morning, i’ll sift ashes, i’ll sift ashes over embers as i lay the plans again. pride and prejudice, passion and pain, darning the drama, fusing the fumes, rising like redemption over the darkness at the base of the stairs.

ashes are my nemesis.

my nemesis at the base of the stairs.

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2 Comments

  1. Volcanoes leave the earth
    scorched and lifeless.
    In time life returns
    More verdant than ever.

  2. I have a certain percentage of memory impairment, it’s not a secret thing. It’s physiological, not psychological, and we’re still working on ways that might chip away at that certain percentage.

    Of all the aggravation this has added to my life, the one thing that’s actually improved is…a touch of forgetfulness helps such memories burn less fiercely.

    Sometimes an amnesiac disposition helps with past perception. The slights, the wounds, the pain still occurs…but I don’t hold it quite so closely anymore.


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